Waiting....

That song, "I'm Waiting" just keeps reverberating in my head...yes, I am waiting, our entire family is in waiting.  At the beginning of this journey to a new land, I really didn't mind waiting...waiting in my great house, with my great kids and going to our great church, great barn and great, great school, didn't seem too bad considering the alternative of change, change and more change.  But now...not so much fun.  Still not in the desperate mode, but am tired of cleaning the house constantly for showings.  

We went to see Cory last weekend which was a lot of fun.  It is really pretty up there.  Cory is in Roanoke, which I liked immediately.  The entire area is a world away from our current living arrangements in Houston.  We drove and drove and drove, my eyes and mind were spinning from overload of looking at land, tons and tons of land.  Overall, I think we will really like it there.  We like a bit more space around us and we will love the mild season changes.  It was a fun trip, we ate at one really cute place, "Sweetie Pies Steaks" or something like that.  There were a lot of cute places to eat in "Old Town" Roanoke.  Ready to have our family back together, I think!!  Waiting, Lord, "I'm waiting, waiting on you, Lord"...that is how the song goes.  

Wonder how long??????????????????????????????????????????

Shots

A couple of days ago I took the kids to their yearly check up at the Dr.  I knew there would be shots involved and I had done my best to prepare them.  I am not sure "preparing" them was really the best, but I thought I would try to be controlled and honest letting them know that they might feel a little stick, but then it will all be fine.  Yeh, RIGHT.  Allyson first - she did panic a bit, but I only had to hold her somewhat and she was done.  Trevor's turn - well after seeing Allyson's panicked look, he was already beside himself with anxiety.  I go to pick him up and put him on the table and he just puts his little sandal clad foot up, right into my stomach and starts yelling - NOOOOOO.  I was kinda freaked out - I wondered if I should get on to him for kicking me, laugh and play like he would be fine or just chunk him up on the table and get it over with, I think I did all three as the nurse called in extra reinforcements.  Can I just say how bad I felt for all the children waiting in the rooms anywhere near us - really anywhere in the building.  What they heard probably will never be forgotten, Trevor screamed bloody murder and didn't stop until we left the building.  Poor baby, poor Mommy!  

Jenna had her shots a couple of days after, she had 3. We had to stay in the room and could not leave for awhile because she was very light headed and was considering fainting -they know us well at the Dr. Office, yes, family with drama. She did recover enough to leave the building without incident, thank goodness.  Just very glad it is all over with! Whew!


Funny when you look back on it...kinda.

BE STILL...and know that I AM GOD!

I picture God saying that to me..."BE STILL, Kristan" - no, I hear Him saying it to me and it is SOOOO hard to do.  I have a major problem with planning out everything and actually thinking it will go the way I plan it.  Of course a dear friend has reminded me that God already HAS those plans made for me and He does not need my help.  I need to be still and, well, do what I am told. 


As Mr. Wonderful told me today, "You are so moody."  Yes, so true.  There are many reasons I might be "so moody" none of them I really need to be reminded of, but I have to see his point.  My emotional roller coaster ride really does not need to be displayed constantly.  So, I'm getting off the roller coaster and I am going to be still...ish...hey, I am growing here, give me a little grace.


I have to say, I do have the most encouraging friends and I am soaking up every scripture and every lovely word they are saying to me.  Big *HUG* to all of you - you know who you are - yes, it is you!


BIG 'ole weekend ahead and our 40 days will start on Monday, I'll blog after my mind stops spinning.


My verse: "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalms 46:10


Exalting God with you,
K

The Long Journey to the Promise Land

40 days, 40 days, that is what I heard over and over as our Sunday School lesson was spoken from the leaders mouth to my ears.  This is what I left with that Sunday to carry home and ponder.  That is a useful lesson in our family situation right now. 

Our family is embarking on a new journey, a journey 4 hours north of us to Ft. Worth.  It is true we are being RIPPED away from everything and everyone we hold precious to go on a journey.  That should probably be put a different way, lets try again.  It is true, my husband has accepted a job in Ft. Worth and our family will soon be relocating to this area to begin a new, exciting journey in our lives as a family.  Yes, that was better, but the latter is more true to how I am feeling.  Really feeling rather lonely, like no one has ever been through something like this before, only me....what a pity party, huh?  Well, I'm in a small state of mourning, I am sure I will get over it and "bloom where I'm planted" and all of that.

I received multiple verses from my dear, dear friend.  I am pondering over them and praying over them.  I know what is right and I know that there will be a promised land for our family.  But the journey will be rough, not smooth sailing as all my plans have chartered it as being, no, rough and uncertain.  This is where I will be adding certainty to my life, to my children's lives, and stability to my marriage and giving courage to my husband (I'd follow him to the ends of the earth), we will rely fully on God, knowing that he wants to prosper us, not harm us.  

My verse to hang on to today:
Jer 29:11 (NIV) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."