Waiting....

That song, "I'm Waiting" just keeps reverberating in my head...yes, I am waiting, our entire family is in waiting.  At the beginning of this journey to a new land, I really didn't mind waiting...waiting in my great house, with my great kids and going to our great church, great barn and great, great school, didn't seem too bad considering the alternative of change, change and more change.  But now...not so much fun.  Still not in the desperate mode, but am tired of cleaning the house constantly for showings.  

We went to see Cory last weekend which was a lot of fun.  It is really pretty up there.  Cory is in Roanoke, which I liked immediately.  The entire area is a world away from our current living arrangements in Houston.  We drove and drove and drove, my eyes and mind were spinning from overload of looking at land, tons and tons of land.  Overall, I think we will really like it there.  We like a bit more space around us and we will love the mild season changes.  It was a fun trip, we ate at one really cute place, "Sweetie Pies Steaks" or something like that.  There were a lot of cute places to eat in "Old Town" Roanoke.  Ready to have our family back together, I think!!  Waiting, Lord, "I'm waiting, waiting on you, Lord"...that is how the song goes.  

Wonder how long??????????????????????????????????????????

Shots

A couple of days ago I took the kids to their yearly check up at the Dr.  I knew there would be shots involved and I had done my best to prepare them.  I am not sure "preparing" them was really the best, but I thought I would try to be controlled and honest letting them know that they might feel a little stick, but then it will all be fine.  Yeh, RIGHT.  Allyson first - she did panic a bit, but I only had to hold her somewhat and she was done.  Trevor's turn - well after seeing Allyson's panicked look, he was already beside himself with anxiety.  I go to pick him up and put him on the table and he just puts his little sandal clad foot up, right into my stomach and starts yelling - NOOOOOO.  I was kinda freaked out - I wondered if I should get on to him for kicking me, laugh and play like he would be fine or just chunk him up on the table and get it over with, I think I did all three as the nurse called in extra reinforcements.  Can I just say how bad I felt for all the children waiting in the rooms anywhere near us - really anywhere in the building.  What they heard probably will never be forgotten, Trevor screamed bloody murder and didn't stop until we left the building.  Poor baby, poor Mommy!  

Jenna had her shots a couple of days after, she had 3. We had to stay in the room and could not leave for awhile because she was very light headed and was considering fainting -they know us well at the Dr. Office, yes, family with drama. She did recover enough to leave the building without incident, thank goodness.  Just very glad it is all over with! Whew!


Funny when you look back on it...kinda.

BE STILL...and know that I AM GOD!

I picture God saying that to me..."BE STILL, Kristan" - no, I hear Him saying it to me and it is SOOOO hard to do.  I have a major problem with planning out everything and actually thinking it will go the way I plan it.  Of course a dear friend has reminded me that God already HAS those plans made for me and He does not need my help.  I need to be still and, well, do what I am told. 


As Mr. Wonderful told me today, "You are so moody."  Yes, so true.  There are many reasons I might be "so moody" none of them I really need to be reminded of, but I have to see his point.  My emotional roller coaster ride really does not need to be displayed constantly.  So, I'm getting off the roller coaster and I am going to be still...ish...hey, I am growing here, give me a little grace.


I have to say, I do have the most encouraging friends and I am soaking up every scripture and every lovely word they are saying to me.  Big *HUG* to all of you - you know who you are - yes, it is you!


BIG 'ole weekend ahead and our 40 days will start on Monday, I'll blog after my mind stops spinning.


My verse: "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalms 46:10


Exalting God with you,
K

The Long Journey to the Promise Land

40 days, 40 days, that is what I heard over and over as our Sunday School lesson was spoken from the leaders mouth to my ears.  This is what I left with that Sunday to carry home and ponder.  That is a useful lesson in our family situation right now. 

Our family is embarking on a new journey, a journey 4 hours north of us to Ft. Worth.  It is true we are being RIPPED away from everything and everyone we hold precious to go on a journey.  That should probably be put a different way, lets try again.  It is true, my husband has accepted a job in Ft. Worth and our family will soon be relocating to this area to begin a new, exciting journey in our lives as a family.  Yes, that was better, but the latter is more true to how I am feeling.  Really feeling rather lonely, like no one has ever been through something like this before, only me....what a pity party, huh?  Well, I'm in a small state of mourning, I am sure I will get over it and "bloom where I'm planted" and all of that.

I received multiple verses from my dear, dear friend.  I am pondering over them and praying over them.  I know what is right and I know that there will be a promised land for our family.  But the journey will be rough, not smooth sailing as all my plans have chartered it as being, no, rough and uncertain.  This is where I will be adding certainty to my life, to my children's lives, and stability to my marriage and giving courage to my husband (I'd follow him to the ends of the earth), we will rely fully on God, knowing that he wants to prosper us, not harm us.  

My verse to hang on to today:
Jer 29:11 (NIV) "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

"Wash my car...What a nice idea!"

There was this....Yay!!!

And then there was this at my front door...Uh Oh!!!

Raising Sons!

Mr. T is helping Daddy mow the grass. His helpful side is huge! When I think of how God programmed the male it really does astound me. I was gushing kind and astounded words at the small boy that held the door for me the other day in the store...astounded because you don't see this much anymore. Raising a husband can be both wonderful and worrisome. I marvel at the things Trevor picks up from his Dad, what a great influence Trevor can drink up-Dad! Trying daily not to squash the enthusiasm of a spongy 4year old mind is sometimes a struggle. As Mr. T is "helping" me cook in the kitchen I am thinking,"His wife is going to love this someday" while tyring hard not to be disturbed by the mess he is making as the ingredients he is stirring is flying all over the kitchen or while helping his damsil in distress mommy "load" the groceries in the cart saying to myself again "Really, I am raising a hero here" while worrying about the sound of "clean up on isle nine" as eggs could any minute be crashing to the floor. "I will not squash his enthusiasm, I will not squash his enthusiasm..." Wife, wherever you are, HE is the potter, Trevor is the clay!

Off to make an egg sandwich for the little hero now...gotta keep him growin'!

Saying Goodbye to Rocket

Allyson had to say a sad goodbye to her little rodent friend the other day. Rocket had been in her life for 2 years and it was apparently time for his little life to be over (hamsters don't live very long). He was a good little hamster and loved to play with Allyson, be carried on her shoulder and make his way through the many obstacle courses Allyson and her friends set up for him. This is the first thing Allyson has had to say goodbye to and she was sad and said she would really miss having her little companion in her room. After a quick burial in the back yard and a few nice words from Allyson (and a few little tears too), we said goodbye.

A Girl and Her Horse

Cory and I bought Jenna her first horse about 2 months ago, her name is Tara. We knew the time would come for this purchase since the girl eats, sleeps and breathes horses. I had always admired this horse from afar, but never thought we would be her next owners. Jenna is in love and would live out at the stable if we would let her. Tara is a thoroughbred with lots of strength and spirit, just like Jenna -they are a pair now...a team really. I know how it is to love horses, I have loved them all my life, it is a sweet bond. Tara and Jenna remind me of times gone by with my horse...what great memories! I am excited that Jenna will be making memories of her own with her new horse.

Beginnings 2

OK, I thought I would just try out this blog thing. I was thinking it might be neat to keep family and friends updated on our family, especially our children. Plus, I thought it would be a good place to write down some memories and to have a little "K" space. We will just see how it goes. When Cory gets home I will make sure I am securing it properly - otherwise my beginning may well be the end, hee hee.